A random ID, the cute guy you saw and stalked, the nerdy girl who hide behind her glasses and books, the wanderer, the classmate who smiles at you every time you make an eye contact and all others you talked with.
what does that mean?
Does that mean you were someone, a ” thing” but didn’t make it as far as dating? Or one of you had the intention of dating and other had commitment issues? Or you two were friends and one of you had feelings? Did you already know how it was going to end but you talked nonetheless. Those long 3 A.M conversations slowly deteriorating into small talks and then being left to read,unanswered phone calls, awkward stares, and uncomfortable silence, heart sinking down when you see them with someone else that’s not you? Did there care became over protectiveness for you? Did their spontaneous attitude started to seem as recklessness? Did the same ” THING” that made you fall for them became the reason of your detachment? And then it ends, hasslefree, no explanations, no emotional drama, no tears, no calls, no explanation, no running behind you to stop you from going, no door knocks asking for your forgiveness, no standing outside in pouring rain to get you back. Because you only talked, right? You feel like why would i care if we were nothing but just “thing”, something so stupid that it doesn’t even have a name, it’s just a thing . Anything can be a thing so why chase after a thing . Why go through all the emotions you would have felt after a breakup when you already knew how it was going to end. Why go through all the hurt?
But no matter what, you do get hurt. Every time your phone rings you wish it’s them, your eyes look for them , and every time they come across you, some words die on your tongue, never coming out. We get attached without even wanting or knowing. We fall for “things”, you start finding small little things that makes you fall for them a little more, and when the things don’t even go right , when they do all the wrong things and keep hurting you , we seem to go right back to that “thing” we have. And we find ourselves questioning. Why was this not the correct time? Why are they older? Why can’t we have some more time? Why it can’t be just us? Why can’t they put a little more effort in this? Why can’t we two just happen? Relationships should not be based on these questions. The right one will come along and answer all your questions. Don’t settle for things. You deserve way better than a thing.